a time for freaking out slightly...
yeah, so I'm supposed to be all grown up if I'm about to finish school, right?
and I'm supposed to know stuff. um, oops? I think there's a problem here...
OK so I realise that logically speaking I have no reason to freak out, everyone's in the same boat. blah blah, I do know stuff, blah blah, I am not actually going to fail anything, blah blah blah.
Unfortunately, knowing stuff in your head and acting on it aren't quite the same thing, and I'm getting stressed about the HSC. Dammit, I said I wasn't going to do that! I keep realising exactly how much I haven't done, and need to do, between now and various dates from the 20th oct to mid november... and it's got me more than slightly worried.
I've always said I was going to have no regrets, and I want to live by that. But sometimes it gets hard. You get tired, or sick, or depressed by something (or all of the above) and then somehow everything gets harder.
Why is it that the moment you have one negative thought going around in your head, more just keep following it? It's pretty darn irritating, really. You have to be careful or you get sucked into a downward spiral.
And compared to most people I know, I'd say I'm naturally a pretty optimistic person. Which leaves me rather worried for everyone else...
I can't believe I am about to start my last week of school! And it's not even a full week!
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unbelievably weird! And exciting. And scary. And somehow very ethereal, or something.
I'm so excited about so many things!
My upcoming exams are (mostly) not included!
But that's ok!
I'm off to keep putting together a Maths class recipe book (gg!) and a yr12 scrap book that is going to (hopefully) contain lots of messages from people =D
it's exsmiting!
and I'm supposed to know stuff. um, oops? I think there's a problem here...
OK so I realise that logically speaking I have no reason to freak out, everyone's in the same boat. blah blah, I do know stuff, blah blah, I am not actually going to fail anything, blah blah blah.
Unfortunately, knowing stuff in your head and acting on it aren't quite the same thing, and I'm getting stressed about the HSC. Dammit, I said I wasn't going to do that! I keep realising exactly how much I haven't done, and need to do, between now and various dates from the 20th oct to mid november... and it's got me more than slightly worried.
I've always said I was going to have no regrets, and I want to live by that. But sometimes it gets hard. You get tired, or sick, or depressed by something (or all of the above) and then somehow everything gets harder.
Why is it that the moment you have one negative thought going around in your head, more just keep following it? It's pretty darn irritating, really. You have to be careful or you get sucked into a downward spiral.
And compared to most people I know, I'd say I'm naturally a pretty optimistic person. Which leaves me rather worried for everyone else...
I can't believe I am about to start my last week of school! And it's not even a full week!
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unbelievably weird! And exciting. And scary. And somehow very ethereal, or something.
I'm so excited about so many things!
My upcoming exams are (mostly) not included!
But that's ok!
I'm off to keep putting together a Maths class recipe book (gg!) and a yr12 scrap book that is going to (hopefully) contain lots of messages from people =D
it's exsmiting!
Shorty last blogged on Saturday, September 23, 2006.
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